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Why You Might Never Want To Meet Your Idols


I’d rather not mention names here, but as fortune would have it, I actually met and even became friends with a singer who I had idolized for many years. I first heard of him when he was with a somewhat popular band, and followed his solo career when he left the group. I had a sort of a teenage crush on him and was a little obsessed, quite frankly.

I finally had the opportunity to go to one of his concerts in Germany. I thought for sure it would be at a huge concert hall with thousands of people. As fortune would have it, it was quite small, and I even got to meet him and hang out with him before the show! When I first saw him standing outside of the venue, I couldn’t believe my eyes. I know I acted totally stupid, I mean, here he was, just standing here and talking to me!! And we were like, just, hanging out!

The next time he came through, I was there. And he recognized me! So, we hung out a little before the show again, and he told me that I would love the opening band. He was right. They were incredible!

Well, after attending a few more shows since then, we were friends. Not only were we friends, but I became close friends with the opening band.

So now things are weird. It’s not weird as in our friendship being weird. It’s weird in the fact that I want to be that star-struck fan again, but now it’s different. I’m still insane about their music and I still scream and dance around like crazy at all their shows.

11200805_10206214327024706_4085956511866190911_n (2)But now I hang out with them backstage and even have their telephone numbers. Every fan’s dream, right?

Don’t get me wrong. It is a dream come true. But now I’ve gotten to know them as people. I know about their personal lives. I know about things they deal with. I’ve come to find out that they are normal, everyday people.

What I really wanted was to know them as the insane people they portray onstage. I wanted to think of them as dangerous.

Instead, I’ve met some wonderful people who have some of the same struggles as I do. They stick together and look out for each other. They have families that they miss and leave behind as they tour the world. They are so normal!

Getting to know your idols in person can change your whole perspective of them. That can be both good and bad.


Natural Adrenalin – Can You Put That In a Bottle?


I, like millions of other people, live with daily pain. It is horrible to have to live with so much pain that just sitting, standing and many other day-to-day movements can cause. We take so many things for granted when we are young.

And I,  just like millions of other people, have been given so many medications and tried so many treatments that may mask the pain temporarily, but nothing really seems to work. If anything, when the medications or treatments wear off, the pain seems to have intensified, because the original problem is still there.

Of course, a “cure” may never be found. If it does, it is probably a long way from being discovered. However, what I have found is that music and dancing give me a boost of energy that makes me “forget” the pain. It takes me to another level that I can’t explain, but at that time and place, I feel good. Really good. Awesome, even.

13934764_10209723720917360_1638781542874610390_nStrange how I am not able to move one minute, but let me hear some of my favorite songs, and I jump up and just start moving. I am not a good dancer, by any means, but that’s never stopped me! If, however, a disability lawyer would just happen to see me, they would tell me that there is no way that I am disabled. They would swear there is nothing wrong with me and that I am quite capable of standing on my feet all day. 

Yet, it is the adrenaline that gives me the motivation for just that moment in time. Unfortunately, I can’t play music and dance at a workplace all day long. I have to get to business eventually. And when I stop, the pain comes back. Sometimes with a vengeance, because of the dancing.

So, how can I capture this feeling and save it inside of me to last throughout the workday? Can this stuff be bottled and taken as needed? It would be a wonder drug. It would be the most natural medication there is. If scientists could figure out a way, this would be the miracle product we’ve all been waiting for!

Until then, I will have to keep my dancing and bursts of energy to myself.